Paris Jackson has spoken out about the mental health battle she has had since childhood and how she “hated” being dressed like a doll by her father, Michael Jackson.
The 22-year-old model, who is the daughter of the King of Pop, has detailed how her body image has led her to try and take her own life on numerous occasions.
Paris said she turned to self harming as a way of coping, as she went through a traumatic time while a teenager.
During the latest episode of her Facebook Watch series, she said: “I was the only girl of four boys for the first 10, 11 years of my life. Because I was the only girl, my dad loved playing dress-up. I looked like a porcelain doll and I hated it.”
Following the death of her father in 2009, Paris started gaining weight while living with her grandmother, Katherine Jackson, and said at 11 years old, she became addicted to food.
“Food became an addiction and then a cousin called me fat so I was like, ‘OK, I can’t do that anymore.’ And that’s how I fell into self-harm,” she said.
“I would cut and burn myself,” Paris added. “I never thought that I would die from it because I was always in control of the razor and I knew how deep I was going.”
Paris made the admission during the second episode of her docuseries with her boyfriend, titled Unfiltered: Paris Jackson & Gabriel Glenn.
She told how she was constantly looking for a “dopamine release,” which led to attempts on her own life.
Paris continued: “There’s a lot of things that cause a dopamine release. Self-harm was one of them, tattoos was one of them and so there was that and then also it was a distraction from emotional pain and transferring to physical pain and the need for control.”
She added: “Yes, I tried to kill myself many times.”
Singer Paris, whose mother is Debbie Rowe, credits boyfriend and bandmate Gabriel Glenn with improving her mental health and now hopes to inspire others.
She said: “I still struggle to accept myself but that’s what I want to influence.
“I want to influence self-acceptance and courage and being comfortable in your own skin. I’m just working on content, trying to be content. Baby steps.”
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